I’ve been in a kind of quirky/creative mood lately, which is loads better than stressed out/anxious, but I really need to force myself to study and get serious. Last night/afternoon I drew pictures. For seven hours. Sometimes I wonder if I should study art. I always feel self-conscious about taking pictures/drawing because I love other people’s work so much I can’t even compare…but when I get creative it’s sort of the only time I can really focus on something. I mean…seven hours. I feel proud of my drawings but I lament that time lost because I still have so much schoolwork I should be doing.

On Thursday at my school there was a rally protesting prop 8. I really wanted to go but I was busy the whole day finishing a group project. Like, crazy busy. I ate lunch at two and barely had time to go to the bathroom all day :P . Bad luck.

Anyway, because of that group project I got to talk more with some people in my class, and they’re pretty cool. One girl I even sort of have a crush on. Dammit. I feel silly because this is sort of the first crush I’ve acknowledged and I don’t know how to feel. Like, I don’t want to fuel the crush by thinking about her. I’m pretty sure she’s straight with a boyfriend so I don’t want to crush on her, but in any case I want to be better friends with her because she’s so nice and funny. She even sort of invited me to go to a gay bar with her and her friends (some of her hall mates are gay guys). She said she’d call me some time. I was so happy. But I’m freaking 17. For another 7 months. DAMMIT.